“Show me your thorns and I’ll show you hands ready to bleed.”

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“Mother, Father,

It has been a few weeks since I left home. There has been so much I’ve seen, sights I’ve never dreamed of, and people with even more unique personalities than mine. All lovely, though! I suppose I was expecting more negativity, from the times I was told so from the clan, but… it’s nothing like that. Yes, there have been “negative” interactions, but you simply have to give them the chance! It’s been nothing short of beautiful here. I even work for an important House, and they’ve taken me with open arms. How grateful I am to them.

The Sanctuary is nothing like home in its aesthetic and scenery, nor is it really in the abundance of warmth I feel with others. I hope one day you learn to forgive me, I just –”

A few sentences were scribbled out, one try after another.

“I guess what I am trying to say is I’m okay. I’m more than okay, and I’m thriving within society's norms while learning something new every day. You were wrong, but perhaps you were only scared to see me fail. Well, look at me now! I can write far better than what I used to, that’s for sure. Friends whom I deem important, a nice home, and ways to express my creativity.

There is one new thing I’ve learned today. The Sanctuary, perhaps more from the outside, celebrates something called “All-Heart’s Day”. At first, I took this quite literally. I was excited to take an anatomy class or two! However, when I reached the tavern, I was told about a ball, the type you dance in. All-Heart’s Day is not centered around hearts at all. It’s about romance(?). People celebrate the concept of love here, Mom and Dad. From what I gathered, it’s about showing appreciation to the one you adore. I was completely fascinated by this new information. And. I’m excited for the ball.

Love is no stranger to me, the fairytales you’ve both read me were riddled with it. A story, though. I never thought to see it in front of me, letting it seep through my veins and giving me the warmth not even my fur provides…

Seeing such in action is completely different from reading it. It’s like a newfound hope, a new reason to explore. Which I’ve plenty of already, but it’s natural to me. As if it’s been buried within me all this time, I just needed an outlet. I have found an outlet. I admit, it’s strange to write down and express this. I’m not used to it, but… I’m happy. To have someone reciprocate such warmth and appreciation. Is this why they celebrate it? If so, I am all about it! I want others to see I radiate with love. That I’ve so much of it to give and no one is an exception. 

Oh, right, as I was saying before, though. I have found one particular… person. It’s not the sort of love I feel towards others. No, it’s much stronger. Watching him smile is like watching the sun rise. My spirit is embraced by his. I know I am imperfect, and he sees right through that rather arrogant play I put on. However, he is persistent. Strong-willed. Most importantly, kind. He looks to others with a strikingly cold gaze, even when he is being amicable, I see it. But I sense none of that when we lock eyes. I can see that he is a man with heavy burdens, but for some reason, that does not steer me away. In fact, I only wish to help carry that weight, even if it is just a small amount, knowing I am weak. But my mind is not! If I can help him only for a moment, that is all I need. To help ease and comfort him. 

It’s all so new to me. I’m living in the books I read when I am near his presence. I do not ask for much, if anything at all. I don’t wish to be a bother to anyone. But, I do have one desire. To stay by his side for as long as he’ll allow. I know I am not a miracle worker. I cannot heal anyone or take any pain away forever, but to see the ice melt away in his eye is all the reassurance I need.

Mother, Father, I am well taken care of. Please don’t worry about me any longer. You were wrong about society, and I’ve come to terms with the lie that was told to me. This world is made for me. And I belong in it, just like everyone else.

Your Dearest Daughter, 

Elysia Alaida Vanora."

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oh sweet poet